Wednesday, July 1, 2009

oh cool man, i realised i am such a failure in life!



Went to see doctor, and when i reached home, decided to clean my room. To clear away all the bad luck and virus and wadever so. so pack pack clean clean. to realise my room is really messy. my white cupboard looks white now, it used to have a yellowish glow ever since i lend it to my mum. I cleaned it with CIF. it works damm well on stains. packed my cupboard and dig out my sch bag. then i started preparing things for sch. then cleaned my doubledecker bed, so that tonite i can have a good sleep. then clean my other bed. changed bedsheets and quilt cover and pillow cover. the vacuum vacuum and vacuum. lastly mob.

so dumb, i realised my shelf is full of dust after that, yuck lah, i hate my shelf, it kinda of attract dust type and speck of dust is dman obvious looking. so cleaned shelf and re vacuumed, i wipe. got so tired and lazy to clean drawers and bookshelf. fall asleep on the new bedsheet cos it feel so good.

wake up to realise i ponned elearning today and i have yet to submit the work for today. for english only. oh well!

i have dman loads of stuff to be completed, over the short span up to friday. all thanks to the chicken pox. it sucks, i am conscious yet i cant do anything. eat, sleep, watch movie, sleep, watch drama serial, sleep, eat, watch entertainment show and sleep. cant even study cos i feel so damn uncomfortable. dont even say abt holding a pen. i cant even hold a pen then, pls lah, holding a chopsticks was a pain. now i got a whoel lot of things to do and considering i need to mug like shit so that my results will be back.

this somehow lead me to feel so bad.
i am utterly useless in drama now. wow. althought i prefer it the way due to the situation, but it is damn not nice as a history of my life.
there is no outbreak in council too. come on lah, my council life indirectly ended. with nothing special really.
i am full of shit in my studies now.
not that i have an outstanding project.
no service-learning or wadever so.

i feel damn failure.

nites. i need to go chiong all the work now.

幻想-I-N-G@11:23 PM

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